My fabourate bolywod actress is jeniliya

she asked me the name of my fabourate actress and jeniliya was the name that flew out. Then c linked the question with the type of girl i like which was cute according to her.

But the fact was a girl who looked like jenilya was one of my crush actually the biggest crush who had proposed me after we were friends for 1 and a half years. But there were a lot of tragedies due to which i rejected the proposal with a stupid reason. Sometime i really feel sorry for her because she was the kind of girl i would love to be with. But the tragedies are

1. i was not ready for a relationship especially with a girl who was as wild as her and scared too
2. she was my seniors ex gf . Actually it was not a big reason but it still counts
3. i was confused
4. she got in a relationship with him because of me
   but she never gave up on me for almost a yr...she greeted me with something whenever she was present in class nomatter i was busy with something or i never greeted her first... but i really respect her tries i guess she was compelt to propose bcoz proposal frm gls r rare... not in toch with and really never missed her coz i dont kno

these days i dont like making friends with girls because they start expecting from their close friends and friendships cant continue with unfulfilled expectations. Its complicated